Children Are So Resilient

Well Ladies,

I'm finished with school!!!! (for the semester) Thank God!!!! So, hopefully I will be blogging a bit more now. This one unfortunately, isn't a happy one. But all Moms hopefully can sympathize.

Sunday night, after going to get snowballs with the family, DJ had a febrile seizure. Now, mind you, he hadn't showed any signs of being sick. No fever or anything. I went into the room to pick him up and put him in the bath tub when I saw he was seizing. Of course I wanted to freak out but I had to step outta mommy role for a minute and be the emergent peds nurse that I am. I picked him up and placed him in the tub and wiped him down with warm water. We then rushed him to the ER. He seized for at least 5 minutes. At the hospital, it took him about an hour to fully recover. They ran blood, urine and stool tests and found nothing that would've caused his fever. After ensuring the fever had broken and giving him some antibiotics, we went home. It was 2 am and DJ was up playing and walking around like normal. Thank God right?! Well, 6:30 am he starts seizing again. Only for 30 seconds this time. He recovered a lot faster this time but we still took him the ER. They ran an EEG and did a Lumbar Puncture and still no reason for the fever. So they gave him a high dose of antibiotics and sent him home. He's on a high dose of antibiotics at home and he's fine. He's been fine since the completion of the 2nd seizure but still Mommy is worried sick. I know that febrile seizures can be a one time occurrence and also aren't related to seizure disorders but to be honest I haven't slept since it happened. I'm on constant temperature monitoring. DJ sleeps in our bed (Duane is being very patient, Thank you Lord) and I am checking to feel his skin temp every 1/2 hour or so. I jump every time I hear him move an inch and can't let him outta my sight for fear he may start seizing. I know I'm being over protective but if you've ever seen your child seizing, knowing there is nothing you can do about it, then you know how I feel. I haven't had a decent night's sleep since Saturday. I am at work for the first time this week and I'm trying to do anything to keep my mind off of DJ and the fact that I can't see him or know what or how he's doing. I plan to keep him in our bed until after he's finished his antibiotics in about a week or so. Then maybe...just maybe I'll let him go back to his own bed...maybe.

DJ is doing fine. He has no residual effects from the seizures (children are so resilient). He's moved on with his life, why can't I. He (probably) has no recollection of what happened and is doing well. Why can't I? I need some help Ladies. If anyone has been in this situation, please lend some advice!!!